The quintessential perfectionist

 Woke up feeling great! Like the sun rays coupled with a gentle breeze, there's optimism lurking in every corner. I have sat down and had a conversation with my mom and grandma on how being in the right place is a state of mind rather than something determined by outside forces. I came to the realisation that I am very much sensitive to the words of others around me, their thoughts, their beliefs, and their energies. Any word spoken by them can lead my thoughts to spiral out of control and think of all that can go right or wrong. My grandmother has mentioned something sexist and it irritated me noticeably, despite it not being intentional. I am very passionate about women's rights. I feel awful for sometimes not being able to speak up against sexist practices when I hear people bring them up, but it takes an immense mental toll on me that I freeze and try to remove myself from the conversation. I think misogyny and violence against women is the root cause of why I feel unsettle...

 A few days in Jordan.  A sense of ease and yet a feeling of separation. Longing. Craving. How do I make sense of it? Dasha wrote something along the lines of  "Living with your heart scattered across the earth means every parting somewhere is a coming together somewhere else." I feel like everytime I say a goodbye to a place, I tuck away a version of myself into a hidden psyche, hoping that in a few months I will able to bring her back to life. She dies, however. She is gone. Forgotten. Tucked away into oblivion. For every time I visit a place, a people, a collective consciousness, she is touched, becoming unpure. Out in the open. Wilderness. Me. Taken away and battered, challenged, questioned. A few days in Amman. I have been taking care of myself. For the past few days, things have been hectic. Reuniting with your family is never a bad thing, especially when it means that I get to rejoice in the rich aroma of home cooked food. I'm learning. Thriving. Growing.  I b...

 May 3rd 2020 I am utterly exhausted: this pandemic has taken away a wholesome university experience from me. This is not to say, however, that I didn't try to enjoy my time as much as I could by going on walks often these past few months, admiring the grandeur of the beautiful Arlington gardens near the Student's Union. Closing my eyes, feeling a light breeze caress my hair as I walk through the music of the chirping birds, I get an epiphany. I am a stewardess on this earth: I am here to care for it and pass it on to the next generation while preserving its beauty and maintaining its health.  After attempting to go vegan for the past week or two, I think I have failed miserably at achieving a well rounded diet. My bones were aching and my body was craving. Oh, fish and cheese, when am I ever going to be able to give you up without longing for the food-gasm you give me everytime. I am proud of myself for trying, however, for making a healthier choice for my body and this beaut...

HEYA! :) Six things I'm grateful for: 1. The fact that I have the privilege of staying indoors throughout this tough pandemic. 2. My perfectly healthy body. 3. My Bathrobe 4. Sunny weather 5. Living right next door to the supermarket 6. Netflix Six good things that happened these past two days: 1. I baked cookies with my Dasha. It was the first time I bake. 2. I shared my music with Dasha. This made me feel more comfortable with my own taste. 3. I rested for a full day 4. I had two consecutive good hair days in a row 5. I slept in until noon 6. We found baking soda in the supermarket after spending hours of searching Six things I learned in the past two days: 1. I learned how to bake. Raw egg is the reason eating cookie dough can cause salmonella. 2. Not all of the moods you're in can be understood. Sometimes, the need to understand them can be overwhelming and useless. 3. Colouring is very therapeutic and should be done at least once a week. 4. "Wag...

Morning :) Three things I'm grateful for: 1. My dog 2. My friends 3. My jewellery Three good things that happened in the past 24 hours: 1. I finished a substantial part of my work 2. I made Greek Salad with Couscous (New dish!) 3. I talked to my mom Three things I learned in the past 24 hours: 1. The average wage in Japan is low despite high employment is partly because of the abundance of low productivity part time workers, in addition to the (nenko) seniority-wage system that offers promotion to an employee based on their age and experience rather than their skill. 2. The purple flower "Limonium" means "I miss you" 3. This life is valuable but fragile. Don't make others' approval the centre of your attention. A word I learnt yesterday: "Epoch"- A particular period in history or one's life. Limonium  also known as "Purple Lavender"

Heya, Three things I'm grateful for: 1. My family 2. My health 3. My large supply of Lipton Black Tea Three good things that happened in the past 24 hours: 1. Rewatched "Stranger Than Fiction" with a friend- It was amazing. 2. Slept for a full 12 hours. 3. Binge-watched the fourth season of "La Casa de Papel" Three things I learned yesterday: 1. Trump's tarrifs on imported Chinese goods has done more harm than good. 2. Physical strength comes from your mind rather than the size of your body. 3. The nuances in your habits could be what gives your life true meaning. A recipe I learnt today: Feta-Stuffed peppers. Ingredients: 1.Feta 2. Tomatoes 3. Couscous 4. Olives 5. Spring onions 6. Bell Peppers Recipe: 1. boil the couscous 2. Add the feta, tomato, and olives to the couscous 3. Mix them 4. stuff them in the peppers 5. bake the peppers!